The hardest thing for me right now, is not being home.
I wish I was able to take a trip up there. I really want to see my sister, I miss her a lot and I hate the idea of her being there on her own. Sure I can talk to her over the phone and facebook message her, but its not the same as being there in person. I’m sure she’ll see this at one point and tell me not to worry about her, but she’s my best friend, of course I’m going to worry about her. I hate not being able to be there for her, it makes me feel so trapped here.
There’s so much I want to write about, so many things that need to be said.
This semester has been the most interesting, challenging, and wonderful few months of my life. Near death experiences and mental breakdowns galore, but I finally think I’m doing better. I’m opening myself up to people more quickly than ever before and I’m finally starting to accept my emotions. This change that’s coming over me may be the most important change in my life.
“I beg young people to travel. If you don’t have a passport, get one. Take a summer, get a backpack and go to Delhi, go to Saigon, go to Bangkok, go to Kenya. Have your mind blown. Eat interesting food. Dig some interesting people. Have an adventure. Be careful. Come back and you’re going to see your country differently, you’re going to see your president differently, no matter who it is. Music, culture, food, water. Your showers will become shorter. You’re going to get a sense of what globalization looks like. It’s not what Tom Friedman writes about; I’m sorry. You’re going to see that global climate change is very real. And that for some people, their day consists of walking 12 miles for four buckets of water. And so there are lessons that you can’t get out of a book that are waiting for you at the other end of that flight. A lot of people—Americans and Europeans—come back and go, Ohhhhh. And the light bulb goes on.”—Henry Rollins (via jaimeduchocolat)
I saw your post about people needing diabetes for a day, and I totally agree. I had my endo appointment yesterday, and my mom and I were yelling at each other because she didn’t understand how hard everything is, and she was mad at me for having my a1c higher. People don’t understand that if they don’t have it, they don’t understand. Its really hard sometimes >.<